meh.
Lyrics to Moosh by BIGWIG:
We sat on a curb after a party. And I'll never forget how she looked at me so sweet. We traded thoughts we traded secrets. And I never thought I'd ever find the girl that made me so complete. I can remember the taste of our first kiss. I can't remember a time when I felt like this. She don't care that I'm always broke. She always laughs at my dumb jokes. I can remember the time that we first met. I can remember the first words that you said. She must have stolen the stars and set them in her eyes. She blinds me with a smile everything is all right. I haven't felt this good in so long. And I've never felt something ever feel so right. And I've been away for a while. And I can't wait to see her smile. I'm driving home so far from here. I hope I get to see her tonight. I can remember the taste of our first kiss. I can't remember a time when I felt like this. She don't care that I'm always broke. She always laughs at my dumb jokes. I can remember the time that we first met. I can remember the first words that you said. She must have stolen the stars and set them in her eyes. She blinds me with a smile everything is all right.

I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind the other night and this song makes me think of that movie and of course of T. Wow he and I have been dating for 3 months today...I know that doesn't seem like a long time but sometimes it seems like we've been together for longer and sometimes it feels like we haven't been together that long at all...it's hard to explain but if you've been there you know what I mean. I can't wait to spend some time with him this weekend. I'll definitely need it after tomorrow night.
I know that this funeral will give me closure but I also know that the pain will still be there for a while. I just need to focus on the good times that he and I spent together. That will help me get through this. And a big THANK YOU to my friend. I really appreciated your words of wisdom tonight.
hi-and-byes

Posted at 10:40 p.m.