Feeling kinda ugly.
GRRR! First off just so you all know I'm not exactly happy at the moment so yeah this is going to be a bitching entry.

So T and I have been dating for the past 2 months....I think that we are doing well. Basically for the past like 3-4 months I've actually decided that I like my body...yeah I still need to lose some pounds here and there but the thing is overall I think that I'm pretty comfortable in my body. Yesterday though is the first time in a while that I really felt horrid being me. We went to Great America...that was fun...but it wasn't fun to have one of T's friends make comments (that he and a couple other people thought were funny) about my chest. It is NOT my fault that I have the chest that I have....it's because of genetics! I can't change them unless I decided to get a breast reduction but I frankly do not want to go under the knife for that. Unless I absolutely NEED to. Anyhow you know a couple of jokes/comments wouldn't have been so bad but the guy has to be a jerk and continue to make them for almost half the day before I got so fed up that I told him to shutup myself. Then he proceeds to say well then I'll just make fun of your lazy eye. SERIOUSLY, FUCK YOU MAN! My lazy eye isn't noticable unless I'm running on not a lot of sleep which obviously for the past month or so I have been running low on sleep and Saturday night I only got about 4 hours. So yeah in one day he managed to make me feel like one of the nastiest chicks he's ever met. Which I know isn't true because he's probably met some really nasty people in his life but damn give it a break. I was so pissed off that instead of yelling at him cause he is a dick I just got quiet for most of the rest of the day.

I truly hated my body for a really long time...I didn't think that anyone would really consider me as beautiful and it's taken me a long time to get to being comfortable in my own body and it's like he's pushed me two steps back. GRRR! Anyhow that's my bitch entry right now....I have to get ready to go to work...it's going to be a long day. I'm at both jobs today so that's always fun. :-) I hope that you all had a good weekend.

hi-and-byes

Posted at 3:17 p.m.